New year, new role

    For those who haven’t heard the news yet: I’m pregnant. If all goes as planned, my baby boy will be born in mid-July, which puts me at right about the midpoint of my pregnancy.

    I’ve been nudged by several friends and relatives throughout the past few months to blog about this news. But one of the reasons I haven’t is that it’s not simple describing what I classify as indescribable. How can you define something that’s so many things, often different things, to so many people? Like love.

    Ben and I haven’t made any noticeable preparations for Baby yet. I’m still putting off all purchases of maternity clothes, and the soon-to-be nursery is still an office without order. Four-and-a-half months until labor pains and I already feel like a bad parent. I think I’m catching on.

    There are reminders throughout the day: I am going to be a mom. Ben is going to be a dad. We are going to be responsible for the life of a tiny human being.

    And that’s when I fall back to square one, where no words justify the emotion behind those statements.

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    2 Responses to “New year, new role”

    1. 1 Mom Says:

      Nice to see your blog after almost 3 months…. Love you! Thinking that my grandbaby may share his birthday with me. 🙂

    2. 2 shell Says:

      Its surreal, isn’t it? And I totally understand being unable to describe it — the emotions, the wonder, the love. It all grows, too. I thought I was totally in love with the Monkey before he was born, and then when he arrived, the feelings just shattered everything I *thought* I felt. Its truly amazing. I also fell even deeper in love with my husband, which I didn’t think was possible.

      Congrats again to you and Ben.

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